Ouch..

Of all things.. you really had to test me on this?

What a test indeed. Taking something which I find and thought of as most precious at the moment.

Like Abraham, You tested his love for You when You told him to sacrifice His one and only son for You.

Like Job, You tested him by destroying all that he had, just to test his heart, loyalty and love for You.

And now.. You tested me with this? It hurts Father. It really really hurts. The pain from punching the floor and the wall repeatedly itself was not as painful as the pain I went through that time...

But I believe, there was a reason for You doing all these. And I believe that everything You do has a reason and a purpose for it. Give me the strength that I need to go through this. Give me the strength to find the joy that I've lost because of it. Give me your overwhelming love, comfort and presence that I so much needed right now.

And now as I ponder...You Yourself did the ultimate sacrifice by giving Your son for me.Were You happy about it? No. It surely did hurt You badly no, Papa?

But You still did because of Your abundant love for us... therefore I thank You for that Father. I thank You Jesus for it. May this experience be a learning lesson for me to grow. May this hurt be turned into joy once again knowing the fact You will carry me through the whole thing with Your everlasting love and grace.

I will turn my sorrow into happiness. I will turn my grieve into shouts of joy. I will proclaim my praises and worship to You evermore. Let my sacrifice be the sweetest aroma I can ever possibly give You.

You give and take away,
Blessed be the name of the Lord.

Current Wishlist

1. Chopsticks
2. Maggi Mee - Asam Laksa, Curry and Tomyam Flavor
3. Curry
4. Bak Kut Teh
5. Infinitely much more...

Delirious Concert Photos

I know its pretty late to post this now.. but hey, as promised, the Delirious concert photos!

Pastor Noel and Don (the worship team drummer/bassist/guitarist/vocalist... lol) He's a super talented guy man. Single and available too! Need his contact number? Get it from me! :P

*whispers* Hey Don, I promoted you already! Now you owe me a treat! :P Sorry just kidding!

Don't ask me why they bother selling pop-corns during a worship concert... and certainly don't ask me why Pastor Noel decided to get one for himself...

Me and Daisy. Our photographer of the day. The VAIN one as well...

The opening of the concert... pretty cool :)

Us enthusiastically singing with all our heart and might :)

Nice lighting effects they have!

There were two things that I recorded on my phone from what Martin Smith spoke during the interlude of one of the songs. He said,

"Let the church be the voice for the voiceless people."

"Let the church speak in ONE voice, UNITED and not DIVIDED"

Cool right?

Anyways thanks again for the photos Dianne and Mei :)

Now I see

Time to move on then.

...

All the time we were together,

The pain, the joy we shared and suffer,

Was it all in vain?

If only things could work out for the better,

...

Did I expect this to really happen way before I came here?

But why now? Why can't we meet up first before all of you decide?
Was I too late?

Was it because of me not being around that things grew from bad to worst?

...

Regardless of what has happened, my heart, emotions and feelings is still with you all. You will always be a part of me, as I have been a part of you.

Nothing can ever take my memories with you guys away. I know those experiences were real, and not fake at all...

...

Jeremiah 29:11

Hi guys! Sorry I wasn't able to blog a lot recently. It's been really busy throughout this period of life right now, before, during and after Easter. Well not having an internet connection at home plays a factor too, but at least I still have my favourite spot for my Wi-Fi..hehe. Ok.. lemme just share a verse with you guys.

Well, I've always been a big fan of the verse - Jeremiah 29:11

Ever since I first gave my life to Christ, it has always been my life verse. Now let's look at this particular verse,

In NKJV -

'For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.'

In NIV -

'For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'

As you can see, both verses emphasizes on God's plans for giving us a future and a hope.. but the best is yet to come from the following version....

Gotta LOVE this the most!! In the Message Bible version-

'I'll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you *back home. I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.'

*BACK HOME!? Well, I do hope He will bring me back to Malaysia soon!!A.S.A.P!! hehehe...well.. that's not really what the verse meant lah :P

How awesome and meaningful it sounds! He shows up and takes care of us when we needed Him the most!

He has also promised us that he knows what He is doing. He has it all planned out, just so that He can gives us the future we have always HOPED FOR!!

For every season in my life, the content and the meaning of this verse has always changed for me. Every time this very verse has comforted me.. And with it, God has continually been so real in life, and I'm really really blessed by it.

And now, look. He has brought me here, not to harm me, but to prosper me. It was pretty funny when I actually complained (partly was because of being homesick..)to Him before one night during my devotion a couple of days before...

Kevin: I’m not being fruitful here, and I don't feel like I'm growing in my walk with You! Why bring me over here Lord? Why didn't you answered my prayer to stay in Malaysia? I've been doing so well there... Why did they have to reject my PR application!? .... Sorry Lord.. I really want to know why....I just wanna know why..

God : *smiles*

*I felt sudden joy overwhelming me, so I can basically sense that God is smiling over me with my silly questions...

And there I was sitting on my bed, suddenly being reminded of all the things I has/had been doing in the church that I’m attending right now...

1. I’m serving in the worship team now, not just as a guitarist, but also as one of the vocalists.

2. I helped Pastor Rick create a database of the both churches. Going to create a database for the Bright Light's Students soon.

3. I helped Pastor Rick to properly compile the list of contacts he has in his laptop, in his Microsoft Outlook. What took him more than 3 days to do (and it was still in a total mess.. hehe..), I did it in less than 3 hours.

4. I helped to make the brochure/bulletin for church. It was in a new format, including the San Buena church information as well. Their last edition? October 2004. And it was my very first time ever creating/making one, and also my first time using Microsoft Publisher.

5. I helped Pastor Noel to fix one of the PC’s in church, which was heavily infected with virus.

6. I helped Pastor Noel to fix his wife’s laptop. The funny twist was he actually sent it for repairs to some computer ‘experts’ but both of them told him they can’t fix it. ‘Experts’…yeah right.. I got treated with Italian food!! (Happy)

7. I helped lighten Pastor Rick’s burden by taking over his responsibilities to be in charge of the chorus board ministry at San Buena church, just so that he can spend more time with his family, especially on Sunday’s. It really means a lot for him :)

8. I volunteered to be an English teacher, teaching an extra English class for the students every Thursday, emphasizing on their conversational and comprehension skills.

9. I'm in charge of playing the guitar for San Buena’s annual church wide prayer meeting.

10.Recently I got elected for the position of Secretary (I garnered all the votes...landslide victory I must say) for the CACF'sYouth Ministry group.

11.I recently was elected by Pastora(female term for calling a female pastor in the Philippines) Thess for the position of 'Advisor', alongside Pastor Dodoy, for the San Buena Youth Group too.

His presence then filled me and my room after that... I just sat there and cried, thanking God for reminding me always, that He has always do things according to His will and timing. It's really true when they say that God knows what is best for you, and look at what He is doing in my life right now. Hearing the cries of my heart before coming here, to be able to serve Him more than before, He has continually open more ways and doors of opportunities for me to do things I have never imagine myself doing before.

Nearly everyday, I have been able to share with my close ones about the new events that are taking place in my life. Sometimes I simply baffled and astounded by the events itself!

Being a vocalist in the church? I've never prayed for that!? Youth Ministry Secretary? Do you think I have what it takes Lord, after already learning a lot of doing admin work from my CG leader? Fixing a laptop!? The best I did was to fix mine alone...which is in Vista, and not in XP!? How!? Youth Ministry Advisor? I've only been serving as the person in charge of the Chorus Board ministry here as well as playing guitar for them? Did you find me faithful? Have I gained their favor because of my faithfulness?

God indeed has been good in my life and I really wanna thank those listening and lending ears for giving me the chance to share it with them. Thank you all! It's been a great joy and blessing sharing it with you guys!

As I pray this prayer..

"As I lift my hands Father, let Your name be glorified. Anoint them, as You continually open more ways and doors of opportunities for me to serve. Anoint them, to help prosper others around me, being a great blessings to those above and under me. You have prospered me and blessed me indeed, and now let me do the same, as You have done so for me. Anoint my lips, to continually give You the sacrifice of praise that You truly are worthy to receive. Anoint them, to carry the Good Message about You, Jesus. To encourage and build up others, to speak words of Life and not of Death. Carry me, and be with me in times of joy and in times of trouble. I place my trust in You always."

And with all my heart I ROAR - "AMEN!"

Good things come in THREE!

Three things that scare me

1. Tagging people.

2. When a baby cries while I'm taking care of him/her. PANIC man!

3. Whatever I planned goes totally wrong.

Three people who've inspired me

1. Pastor Kevin

2. Gregory Chee

3. Sherene Lim

..the rest of you, my closest ones, you know who you are :)

Three things I love

1. My family and closest friends

2. FOOD. *RAAWRS*

3. A beautiful scenery (i.e: Rainbow, Sunset/Sunrise, Moon and the stars at night, nature,etc) + wind blowing a nice, gentle breeze

Three places I love

1. My "bed" with my laptop facing me directly

2. MALAYSIA (need I say more?)

3. My "Father's" House

Three things I hate

1. Hypocrites

2. Gossipers

3. Backstabbers

Three things I don't understand

1. How any parent are able to understand what his/her baby wants from their cries.

2. People not bother replying my miss calls to them, or even text messages. RAAWWRS.

3. Why are we liken to monkeys based on the flawed theory of "Evolution". LOL

Three things I must have on my dressing table (can I just say my "DESK"?)

1. Books that I read (including the Bible)

2. Photos, notes and inspiring messages from my closest friends :)

3. Laptop, mp3 player, guitar capo.

Three things I do first thing in the morning

1. Goes to sleep another 5-30 minutes. "Snooz-ing" Rocks!

2. Checks what time is it. If it's still "too early", goes back to sleep for another 5-10 minutes.

3. Greets God, and apologizes to Him for being so blur when I do so...

Three things I do before going to bed

1. Listen to soothing songs

2. Have my devotion.

3. SHOUTS "TIMMMMBEEERRRRR!!!!" (like a huge, tall tree being chopped down) and falls abruptly to my ol' faithful most awesomely comfortable "bed"

Three things I am doing right now

1. Blogging

2. Writing email updates

3. Thinking how to make a baby laugh and smile... TOUGH job man!!

Three things I want to do before I die

1. Prepare my will.

2. Spend lots of quality time with my love ones.

3. Write a book about my life.

Three things I can do

1. ROAR.

2. PURR.

3. MEOW. LOL!! ok ok sry.

1. Tease people.
2. Infinitely crack my knuckles

3. Lose weight

Three things I can't do

1. Faking myself

2. Play the keyboard

3. Swim :'(

Three things I am trying to do

1. Improve my guitar skills

2. Learn the bass guitar

3. Overcoming home-sickness

Three favourite memories of childhood

1. Penang and Cameron trip, 1992

2. Being the head prefect during Primary School

3. Playing Street Fighter and Super Mario in my old game console :P

Three cartoons I watched as a kid

1. Voltron

2. Power Rangers

3. Thundercats

and super lots more!

Consider yourself tagged!

100 truths. Tagged by Elaine.

Im tagged! 100 truths and tagged by Elaine. (I'm too free already, what to do?)

01.Real Name: Kevin Rimas Lee

002. Nickname(s): Fox, Kev, Kevie/Kevvy (-_-),Rimas, Kenlee

003. Age: 21, 22 this year.

004. Horoscope: Cancer

005. Male or Female:

006. Elementary: SRK Raja Di Hilir Ekram

007. Middle School: SK Taman Bukit Maluri

008. High School: SMK Taman Bukit Maluri

009. College School: Form 6 at SMK Raja Abdullah, Diploma in TESOL at London Teaching Training Centre

010. Hair colour: Jet Black

011. Long or Short: Short

012. Loud or Quiet: Quiet. LOUD when I RAWR.

013. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans.

014. Phone or Cam: Both.

016. Drink or Smoke: Neither.

017. Do you have a crush on someone: Interesting question.

018. Eat or Drink: EAT.*RAWRS!*

019. Piercings: Yes.

020. Tattoos: No.

021. Social or Anti-Social: Both.

022. Righty or lefty: Lefty

023. First piercing: October 11 2007

024. First relationship: None

025. First Best Friend: Roshan Bose

026. First Award: 1st in class at Standard One.

027. First Kiss: With my mom I think when I was just a baby. Does that count? HAHAHA

028. First Pet: CAT!!! *RAWRS* ... oops. MEOW I mean.

029. First Big Vacation: 1992, Penang.

030. First Love at first sight: Lemme see... Standard 6 I think.

031. First Big Birthday: When I was 1 years old.

032. First Surgery: Being sent to the hospital to stitch up a big wound I had after being hit by a brick when I was 3 or 4 years old..

033. First sport you joined: Badminton. High school, it was Softball/Baseball.

This or That

034. Orange or Apple juice: Apple

035. Rock or Rap: Rock

036. Country or Screamo: Neither.

037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: Neither.

038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: Christina Aguilera. When she first debuted. Even bought her 1st album!!

039. Night or Day: Night. Coz I'm nocturnal.

040. Sun or Moon: Sun when it rises and sets. Moon, when it's FULL.

041. TV or Internet: Internet 100%.

042. Playstation or xbox: Playstation 3. I've always been a loyal Playstation user.

043. Kiss or hug: For now, lots of hugs. (Homesick punya pasal)

044. Iguana or turtle: Iguana. Turtles... are a bit too boring. At least Iguanas are more active.

045. Spider or bee: Spider.

046. Fall or spring: Fall/Autumn.

047. Limewire or iTunes: iTunes.

048. Soccer or baseball: WOAH!! Baseball!!

Currently

049. Eating: French Fries.

050. Drinking: Apple Juice

051. Excitement level: 10000000000000% (There's a reason for this)

052. I'm about to: Tell Elaine I did her tag.

053. Listening to: Yuna Ito, Jay Chou and Wang Lee Hom.

054. Plan for today: Prepare for tomorrow's 2 days worship seminar at Laguna, with the rest of the worship team members. Gonna go to the beach there too! WOo hoo!

055. Waiting for: 28th of April.

056. Energy Level: MAX.

057. Thinking of someone: more like thinking of EVERYONE!!

Future

058. Want kids?: Duhhh?

059. Want to get married?: Duuhhh?

o60. When? : ..... 28,29?

061. How many kids do you want: 2-3? Must have a daughter first. 2 girls and a boy.

062. Any name on the mind: What name?

063. What did you want to be when you were little: Businessman

064. Careers in mind: Full-time church staff. Cafeteria owner. Pastor.

064. Mellow future or wild? : Wild?

066. Something you would never try: Get drunk.

067. When do you want to die : Ask God.

Which is the better in the boy/girl you like(in the future)

068. Lips or Eyes: Eyes

069. Romantic or Funny?: Both.

070. Shorter or Taller?: Shorter or the same height?

071. Protective or Caring?: Caring. I'll be the protective one of course.

072. Romantic or Spontaneous?: Both?

073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: Both lah hayohh..

074. Sensitive or Loud?: Sensitive. Well, she can be loud too, if she wants to be.

075. Hook-up or Relationship?: Relationship.

076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant?: Hesitant.

077. Muscular or normal: Normal.

Have you ever

078. Kissed a stranger: I got kissed and got myself a RM50 tips.

079. Broken a bone: Yes.

080. Lost glasses or contacts: No.

081. Ran away from home: No.

082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: No.

083. Killed somebody: No.

084. Broken some one's heart: No?

085. Had your heart broken: Yes.

086. Been arrested: No.

087. Cried when someone died: My grandma. And Gina too.

088. Liked a friend more than a friend: I think so.

Do you believe in

089. Yourself: Yes.

090. Miracles: 100%

091. Love at first sight: Depends.

092. Heaven: Yes.

093. Santa Claus: Where is he?

094. Tooth Fairy: I wonder where all the coins went when I was young...

095. Kiss in the first date: Never had a date before.

096. Angels: Yes.

Answer Truthfully

097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now? Yes.

098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now? Not yet. Just not yet. Looking forward for more as always :)

099. Do you believe in God? YES.

100. Post as 100 truths and tagged by______Tagged

This is really pretty long, Elaine.... -_-