Saturday, December 26, 2009

PR

This coming Monday I'm gonna go reapply my Permanent Resident status again.

God, I do hope this will the first and the 'last' time I'm applying for this. No more 5th try or more than that...

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Random

Athena says:
hahaha
kevin u have beautiful eyes
Kevin † says:
woahlao!

*SHY*

Monday, December 21, 2009

=)

You've shown Your amazing grace to me once again.. and there's nothing else that I can offer but my sincerest praises and thanks to You..

You've brought me and my people from the bottom to the top. And I really truly believe now, that You have purposely placed me in a group of 11 amazing people for a reason.

Thank You.


I Stand In Awe Of You
by Hillsong United


You are beautiful beyond description
Too marvelous for words
Too wonderful of comprehension
Like nothing ever seen or heard
Who can grasp you infinite wisdom
Who can fathom the depth of your love
You are beautiful beyond description
Majesty enthroned above


And I stand, I stand in awe of you
I stand, I stand in awe of you
Holy God to whom all praise is due
I stand in awe of you.

Friday, December 18, 2009

FGA Taiping's Youth Camp - Day 1

Had a great chat with Auntie Lai Ping (FGA Taiping's Youth Pastor's Wife) in the bus while on the way to Kampar from Taiping. Amazing how much I can draw from someone who is one of the pioneers for that church, and how I was to able hear lots and lots of life experiences, as well as insights and wisdom of how Christians, especially the youths, can do so much for God.

Asides that, I'm appointed to facilitate a group of 11 youths, all from different backgrounds , different races, different ages. We are in the team called "Grand POWER".. but I don't see the POWER yet..It's seriously a very tough group, and both me and the team leader are trying to get everyone to be bonded together at the moment. but I'm really praying hard that God will bring this group together, despite everyone's differences.

Playing in the worship team is honestly more than a privilege for me. It is a JOY itself to be playing the guitar, using the talents given to me by God for the glory of His name. Got to bang my head around (thanks to the new haircut..hehe), as well jump around with the guitar. Even the practices are fun, getting to know the band members even more, as well as joking around with them, playing funny varieties of chords and notes during our free time. We certainly have such great chemistry =)

But basically, the whole reason why I wanted to blog this post was because of what happened during the altar call. I teared on stage, looking at all the young campers, crying with all their hearts, humble and broken before the LORD. What a sight to behold indeed..about more than half of the campers raised up their hands to surrender their life to Jesus. From as young as 6 years old to 15 years old.. such a heart for God. I can't help but smile and tear at the same time, strumming chords for the song "Amazing Love".

Amazing love, how can it be
That You, my King, should die for me?

Amazing love, I know it’s true
It’s my joy to honor You
In all I do, I honor You.


God is AWESOME, this I know.

Monday, December 14, 2009

Tomorrow....

... I'll finally be meeting up with one of the most important person in my life. You will always be the gem in my heart, the love of my life. I'm praying always that you'll finally be healed from your condition, and regardless of what, I'll make sure nothing can ever steal our moment together away.

I Love You Mom =)

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Rev-elevations :)

This period of time during my fast has really opened up a new dimension in my walk with God and brought a whole new level of closeness with Him as well...

At the moment, I'm jotting down lots of words and answers that God has spoken to me in my ol' faithful,private & confidential, top-secret devotional book (a bit exaggerating here...hehe). I can't deny how happy and at the same time in awe with the amount of revelations upon revelations that He has continually dropped in my mind.

I really really want 2010 to be one of the most life-changing year for me. During this period, there's a sudden surge of holy dissatisfaction of who I am, what I am, how I am and where I am at the moment, which is good, that I know I can push myself to be better, to strive to be on the top...

At the moment, Deuteronomy 28:13 has kept ringing in my mind..

"And the LORD will make you the head and not the tail; you shall be above only, and not be beneath...."

I then asked God, why? Why this verse? I've really tried and gave my best in all that I've done.. EMERGE was quite a major setback, as for every competition that I've joined, I've started well (being the top scorer for both Nintendo Wii Ping-Pong and Word Power), to end up losing or just being 2nd best. Just now during service was another setback, as I lost yet again for the Leader's Memory Verse, losing by a mere ONE mark.

Look, it's not that I have a 'perfectionist' attitude or anything like that, but when you know you have given your all, knowing at one point you are at the top, to suddenly go all the way to the bottom.. that's not a very nice feeling to have...To put it in other words, from being the 'head', in the end, I became the 'tail'.

God then revealed the second part of the verse to me...

"If you heed the commandments of the LORD your God, which I command you today, and are careful to observe them."

"Heeding the commandments of the LORD?" I asked. "Oh, the 10 Commandments given by God to Moses on the stone tablets right? Of course, I do remember and carefully observe and obey all of them." But I then realize it's more than just that, which got me turning to what Jesus has said in reply to the question the Pharisees asked Him. One of them questioned Him of what is the GREATEST commandment?

Jesus answered :

"'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment." - Matthew 22:37-38

This has really opened my eyes. I can't deny at times I do fall into temptations. I do struggle with faith issues. I do skip reading my Bible or even doing my devotions. I've said things, which I shouldn't have said, and I've done things which I'm not proud of, things that I shouldn't have done, things that I've certainly regretted. Most importantly, it no longer matters whether I was the head, or the tail or in the middle. What matters most now is DO I REALLY REALLY LOVE HIM?

What is the condition my HEART towards You? How is my SOUL reacting to You? Is my MIND alligned to Your thoughts? I admit as well, that I've depend on my own strength more than Your strength lately..

Oh Lord, are you calling me to LOVE You in a whole, new different level? I want a breakthrough. A breakthrough beyond breakthroughs. Next year will be different. Next year will indeed be an awesome and amazing year. Next year, a whole new season, a new journey, a new walk, a new discovery and adventure on this path called 'life'. When I'm at the top, I will remain at the top. When I'm at the bottom, I will climb myself to the top. Let me not be slack no more, neither will I be complacent in things I find 'easy' or 'non-challenging'.

Thank You for this 'wake-up call'. I'm more focused and determined now. And as I was writing this.. He gave me this sentence...

When you love Me, everything else will just fall into place.

=
) Amen!

Yoooossssssssssh! 2010. Here I come!

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

P.U.A.S.A

Tujuh hari tanpa makanan... boleh ke aku ni? Hari ini hari kedua sudah... hmm...

Tapi semalam, aku memang tidur lena.. selepas berdoa, hati aku memang rasa sedap hati dan gembira =)

5 hari lagi!