Thursday, August 13, 2009

Tired...

So many things to do, so many things to worry, so many things to plan, so many things to put action to, so many battles fought, so many battles loss, so many people discipled, so many people backslidden, so many hearts won, so many hearts loss, so much expectation placed, so much disappointed received, so many pressure, so little encouragement, so many given away, so little received, so many words, so little heard...and this can go on and on and on..

....

Why are 'you' silent? Where are 'you' when I need 'you' the most right now? In this dry, barren desert, where do I find my oasis?

...I'm tired.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

I'm going 'home', to the place where I 'belong' ..

Yesterday, something really got me thinking... and it was when me and my aunt were waiting excitedly and anxiously to see my uncle arrived at the airport... Basically my aunt wasn't able to sleep the whole night before the day he arrived (just shows how excited she is, being able to meet the man of her life after nearly 1 whole year without seeing each other, keeping in touch only through constant phone calls..), and when I saw her weeping in joy, kissing my uncle and hugging him so tightly when they finally got reunited...

-PRICELESS-

To see my uncle being so treasured and loved by that single, most important person in her life.. I told myself (and obviously to God as well), "Wow.. I want that too.." And then I asked, "Will there be anyone coming anxiously and excitedly to welcome me upon my return? Oh well.. Maybe only the person's that's fetching me. Well, the rest are busy with work and their own stuffs, oh what the heck, I'll still be seeing them for 28 months, and probably even longer than that! Stop emo-ing!" *rapidly shakes head* and continued on taking photos of the 'lovebirds'. =)

Well, this is it my 'love'... I'll be leaving 'you' again for 28 months. But surely, I've never regretted the moment I stepped foot in 'your' land.. learning to love 'your' people, culture, language and all. I'm going to the stay with the 'person' that I grew up with for 16 years.. God's plan is for me to be there at the moment... And please..don't worry too much..'She' has been taking good care of me at 'her' utmost ability (minus the National Registration Department ..GRRR..).. I'll try to my best visit to 'you' if I can :) So.. till then..

Goodbye =) Goodbye to you, the land where I was born. The land where I am proud to be a part of. The land where I've inherited the blood which is in me.

This is my toast to you, my dearest 'love', the country I proudly call -

The Philippines.